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Oh, the arrogance of my youth! So much energy and resources that I wasted on the wrong things and the wrong people. But what could I have done? It was also the only way to learn and the only way to become. I did not have the guidance of parents who fully understood what adulting was. They only repeated what they saw from their own parents. I was pretty much left to my own devices, simply expected to take on the breadwinner mantle as old age crept on them, and the cost of livi
Marichit Garcia
Oct 25, 20252 min read


Daily Page, the First of October
How is it suddenly October? But I like October. I like the idea of Samhain. Of witches and thinning veils between worlds. Of autumn,...
Marichit Garcia
Oct 1, 20254 min read


A Daily Page, the end of September
I am writing this simply to write. I have no theme or topic. This is merely an adaptation of Julia Cameron's Morning Pages, except that I...
Marichit Garcia
Sep 30, 20254 min read


Storytelling
I have my luck, and then I have my misfortune. My life has been an endless rollercoaster. The pandemic feels like a distant memory, yet its impact lingers. It has twisted my life into tricky knots. Loose ends trip me up, often where it hurts the most. Resilience is becoming an ugly word. It’s heavy. It carries weight. Knowing better comes with consequences. There are trade-offs, endless bargaining with many variations of the devil. I often find myself at crossroads or dead en
Marichit Garcia
Sep 29, 20252 min read


Bangs and Blue Nails
I feel like I am vanishing. I feel like I am fading away. I feel like there is less and less of me every day, and I am only what I do,...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 31, 20251 min read


Thoughts While Taking Care of my Dad at a Public Hospital
Private versus public. Rich versus poor. Privileged versus the disadvantaged. Somehow in the course of my strange and dysfunctional life...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 24, 20253 min read


Black Sheep
Photo by Jonathan Mabey on Unsplash I am up and out of bed. I congratulate myself. Usually I would still be there, nursing a cooling mug...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 16, 20254 min read


The Noise in my Head
I thought everyone had noisy heads. Mine is nonstop. Everything, all together, all at once, in layers, in varying volumes, complete with...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 14, 20254 min read


Waiting for the Meds to Kick In
I actually wanted to read but I realized I'm more tired than I think. I wanted to write by hand in my journal but I am too tired to set...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 12, 20253 min read


Knocked Down Dead for a Week Then Resurrected
I am writing this with my brand-new keyboard which is more of an emotional necessity than a functional one. I am also writing this in the...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 12, 20254 min read


Octopus Award and other things
I won a recognition award at the office townhall yesterday. It was the Octopus Award. Because I was the person who was involved in almost...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 2, 20253 min read


Monster Season Back Too Soon
The monster has returned. It wears the face of obligation, the skin of expectation, the breath of never-enough. It knocks on the door...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 26, 20251 min read


One Small Step
After browsing through many options of online subscription services to help me place my art shop merchandise into attractive settings, I...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 20, 20251 min read


Drowning
Sunday. The sacred sigh of the week. And yet here I am, not wrapped in dream-rich reverie or trailing ink into something that might...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 20, 20252 min read


Midyear Muddle
Photo by Michael Wave on Unsplash I had hoped for it to be a midyear restart, recalibration, refresh, revolution. But as I type this I...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 18, 20253 min read


Feeling Medieval
Ah, middle age! The mixtape of life where Side B starts playing, and you finally realize it’s got the better songs. It’s equal parts...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 14, 20251 min read


Reclaiming the Impossible
This evening, I lit an incense stick as a signal of my small rebellion—a flicker in the face of a never-ending storm. I have started an...
Marichit Garcia
Jun 13, 20252 min read


A Forced Stop
Photo by Nick Fewings on Unsplash I thought I could push through. Friday morning, I woke up feeling off. My skin felt too warm, I had...
Marichit Garcia
Mar 17, 20254 min read


The Slow Return: Navigating the Push and Pull of Daily Life
Photo by Angel Luciano on Unsplash There’s a kind of heaviness that sits with you when you return from a trip. It’s more than the weight...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 27, 20252 min read


Finding Work-Life Harmony: Reflections on My Last Day in Japan
At Kenrokuen in Kanazawa I'm sitting in my quiet room at The Royal Park Hotel in Shiodome. I savor these last few hours with a soy latte...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 25, 20255 min read