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ADHD, Bipolar, and the Reality of a Financial Mess
I wish I could say my financial struggles are just “a bit of overspending” or “a late bill here and there.” But the truth is harsher: I...
Marichit Garcia
Sep 13 min read


Bangs and Blue Nails
I feel like I am vanishing. I feel like I am fading away. I feel like there is less and less of me every day, and I am only what I do,...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 311 min read


Thoughts While Taking Care of my Dad at a Public Hospital
Private versus public. Rich versus poor. Privileged versus the disadvantaged. Somehow in the course of my strange and dysfunctional life...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 243 min read


Black Sheep
Photo by Jonathan Mabey on Unsplash I am up and out of bed. I congratulate myself. Usually I would still be there, nursing a cooling mug...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 164 min read


The Noise in my Head
I thought everyone had noisy heads. Mine is nonstop. Everything, all together, all at once, in layers, in varying volumes, complete with...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 144 min read


Waiting for the Meds to Kick In
I actually wanted to read but I realized I'm more tired than I think. I wanted to write by hand in my journal but I am too tired to set...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 123 min read


Knocked Down Dead for a Week Then Resurrected
I am writing this with my brand-new keyboard which is more of an emotional necessity than a functional one. I am also writing this in the...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 124 min read


Octopus Award and other things
I won a recognition award at the office townhall yesterday. It was the Octopus Award. Because I was the person who was involved in almost...
Marichit Garcia
Aug 23 min read


Monster Season Back Too Soon
The monster has returned. It wears the face of obligation, the skin of expectation, the breath of never-enough. It knocks on the door...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 261 min read


One Small Step
After browsing through many options of online subscription services to help me place my art shop merchandise into attractive settings, I...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 201 min read


Drowning
Sunday. The sacred sigh of the week. And yet here I am, not wrapped in dream-rich reverie or trailing ink into something that might...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 202 min read


Midyear Muddle
Photo by Michael Wave on Unsplash I had hoped for it to be a midyear restart, recalibration, refresh, revolution. But as I type this I...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 183 min read


Feeling Medieval
Ah, middle age! The mixtape of life where Side B starts playing, and you finally realize it’s got the better songs. It’s equal parts...
Marichit Garcia
Jul 141 min read


Reclaiming the Impossible
This evening, I lit an incense stick as a signal of my small rebellion—a flicker in the face of a never-ending storm. I have started an...
Marichit Garcia
Jun 132 min read


A Forced Stop
Photo by Nick Fewings on Unsplash I thought I could push through. Friday morning, I woke up feeling off. My skin felt too warm, I had...
Marichit Garcia
Mar 174 min read


The Slow Return: Navigating the Push and Pull of Daily Life
Photo by Angel Luciano on Unsplash There’s a kind of heaviness that sits with you when you return from a trip. It’s more than the weight...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 272 min read


Finding Work-Life Harmony: Reflections on My Last Day in Japan
At Kenrokuen in Kanazawa I'm sitting in my quiet room at The Royal Park Hotel in Shiodome. I savor these last few hours with a soy latte...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 255 min read


Birthday Eve
Tonight, on the eve of my birthday, I sit at the crossroads of looking back and looking forward—one foot still tangled in the weight of...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 132 min read


The Relief of the First Mistake
Photo by Etienne Girardet on Unsplash There’s a strange kind of peace that comes with finally making your first real mistake. Not the...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 82 min read


When Things Fall Into Place
Have you ever experienced one of those rare moments in life where events unfold so seamlessly, it feels like the universe is conspiring...
Marichit Garcia
Feb 73 min read