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Oh, the arrogance of my youth! So much energy and resources that I wasted on the wrong things and the wrong people. But what could I have done? It was also the only way to learn and the only way to become. I did not have the guidance of parents who fully understood what adulting was. They only repeated what they saw from their own parents. I was pretty much left to my own devices, simply expected to take on the breadwinner mantle as old age crept on them, and the cost of livi
Marichit Garcia
Oct 252 min read


Ghost
I thought I was whole but it was only a mask. I thought I was complete but all I had was a shell. I thought I was living but I was asleep the whole time. I thought my life was real. I thought I was real. Then I broke. And I woke. And life is a nightmare that would never quite commit itself, Pulling back just when it was right over the edge, And the abyss grins like an invitation. Love, it turns out, is optional. Not a given, Like batteries they are not included but you can't
Marichit Garcia
Oct 181 min read


One of Those Days When I Wonder What's the Point
This barely alive website, for instance. This blog. This writing into the void. The art shop that never got around to fully opening. The...
Marichit Garcia
Nov 16, 20241 min read


Friday Night
I dread the weekend a little. For one thing, I have a little bit of work to do. It's not required, and there is no hard deadline (yet),...
Marichit Garcia
Oct 19, 20241 min read


Daily Thirty, #00011, Taking Time
The past two weeks my #anxiety and #depression have significantly dropped. And while the #ADHD symptoms remain, I am better able to...

Marichit Garcia
Sep 15, 20242 min read


Daily Thirty, #00010, Light at the End of a Tunnel
Two weeks back at work. I am on a kind of good streak mentally, it seems. The depression and anxiety are in the low levels, which gives...
Marichit Garcia
Sep 14, 20242 min read


Daily Thirty, #00004
Daily Thirty is 30 minutes everyday of giving myself space to just sit down and write anything. It's for calming, therapy, grounding. I...

Marichit Garcia
Apr 27, 20242 min read


Troubled Brain Throws a Tantrum
So I've been thinking how almost everyone in my extro-FB (the FB account where I am my more acceptable self versus my intro-FB where I am...
Marichit Garcia
Apr 9, 20243 min read